Journal Entries

I will be penning down my thoughts here.

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Hunting for internships has been taking up a lot of my free time. Studies are going alright, not too bad, not too good. I’ve been working out consistently, and I’ve been waking up with a lot of energy these days, which I think is really cool. I read an interesting tweet about humanity’s future and long-term progress, which got me excited. I’m learning every day, trying to grow my understanding of the world and how things work. But sometimes I wonder if I’m stuck in a loop where I only learn without applying anything. If that’s true, then I need to break that loop and start creating more.

I sit by the window as I write this. The wind is blowing, and the weather is dark and gloomy. Fall is here, and winter is coming soon. The plants and trees are changing color. Today I want to sit and reflect on what drives me and what gives meaning to my efforts.

There have been moments when I felt deeply inspired—by stories, ideas, and even fictional characters. I think what draws me in is discipline, clarity, and the ability to stay detached from things that don’t matter. These qualities resonate with me. They make me want to understand myself better and strive for a more grounded sense of purpose.

But what does purpose truly mean? What am I actually seeking? Sometimes I wonder if I’m chasing an ideal that isn’t clearly defined. Other times it feels like I’m simply trying to understand what makes a life meaningful.

I’m slowly realizing that my own path will look very different from anyone else’s. The world today functions differently, and the challenges are not the same as the ones people faced in the past. Maybe that’s why it feels difficult to begin—because the landscape of purpose has changed.

Yet somewhere deep inside, I know the essence remains. The search continues, only its form has evolved.

The past week was pretty relaxing. My girlfriend came to visit and stayed for a week. She cooked, and we spent time together, which I really enjoyed. I also had two midterms last week, both of which I think I did average on. My sleep schedule wasn’t great either.

This week, I’ve already finished my assignments. I plan to make good progress on GPT-2 and the other project we’re working on. I also need to find time to study for my Artificial Intelligence class. I want to keep myself busy throughout the week. Let’s see how it goes.

This week has been incredibly productive. I hosted the web, studied, and I’m currently trying to build GPT-2 from scratch. I believe I’ve made good progress. I plan to link the project on the website sometime next week. This week is going to be busy with exams and multiple projects going on.

My running frequency has gone down a little, which I plan to improve this week. I also hope to stay on campus most of the time to remain productive. Overall, things are going well, and I want to keep the momentum going.

I was thinking that my site would constantly need updates via git commits. So I could either add functionality to add entries, update projects, and add photos directly, or just stick to updating through git commits. There’s also the option of using a service like n8n to automate everything, which is interesting but I’m unsure about it.

After thinking it through, I’ve decided not to add that functionality for now and to stick with git commits. I’m moving on to creating GPT-2 from scratch. The site will be maintained manually for the time being.

I’m very tired right now, running on only 2.5 hours of sleep, but I’m also excited about finishing this website. I want to complete it today. For the past few weeks, I’ve been feeling deeply reflective about life, progress, and where I’m heading. These thoughts have been pushing me forward in their own way.